Don't Pretend | Coded Distress

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Details on why I wrote this track.

The Day I released Take Me, Truck-kun My friend messaged me asking if i was okay, asking about how I'm feeling, and asking me about my depression. Pushing for answers. I got a little bit mad at him, cause I didn't want to talk about it, since I had only recently climbed out of the hole. I mean, I had just released my first couple of clips, that put my emotions on display for whoever would listen. Anyhow, he kept pushing, and I responded with "You're a little too late". This made him very upset, then he started yelling at me over text, berating me because I "didn't tell him I was depressed". But in reality I had reached out on multiple occasions, I made a group chat of my closest friends, occasionally just saying "Hey, I'm not doing well", or "I'm not Okay". But no one ever responded. I also sent him my entire Binary Soundtrack Album weeks before releasing it to the public, and it seems like he ignored it. Probably didn't even listen to a single track. Then once I started getting professional help, I'd put on my story things like... "First day of taking this anti-depressant", or "Time to try this next anti-depressant". Until finally about 2 weeks into my 3rd one, "Hey this antidepressant is actually helping".
Again, no one responded, no one really cared. Anyhow, after that argument, he stopped responding to messages, and I went and wrote this song.

I wasn't ever really planning on releasing this song as a whole. But he's straight up ghosted me all together now, and from the clip that I did put on TikTok, people seemed to want the full version.

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